A new day for me(:

Today is the new day for me.

Lots of people are waiting for meteor.

Some of my friends ask me why didn't I go wait and see the meteor.

Aduiii.

Satu orang how to see meteor.

Takkan all one pair one pair then I forever alone sit there and see?

LOL.

Is okayyy:)

If meteor do appears,

I wish.......*wishing*.......

Goodbye my past!

Welcome my bright future:)

Sometimes I just wish there is somebody at there telling me is okay, don't worry. I will be your side no matter what happen.

I just wish there is someone who text me, you don't need to pretend to be tough. You can cry as much as you can. There is always my shoulder for you.

I just wish someone who can protect me from being hurt.

I just wish someone who can cheers me.

I just wish someone who can accompany me.

Am I too over? 

It seems a bit. 

Nvmm.

I think one people still can survive. 

I can remind myself being happy.

I can protect myself.

I can cheers myself.

I can........myself. 

But sometimes when I'm tired of all these things, I just need someone to talk to and listen to my craps.

It is more than enough. 

(: 

Okayyy! Done of emoness. 

Got to go back to my study life. 

(:  

This photo is just reflecting myself. 

*nopeee* got to stop all this things.

I can do it la(:

我真的想通了.

First and foremost, 

Thanks mr loo for spending your time to listen to my craps yesterday. 

I'm seriously okay now:)

Last night is the last time j will cried for him.

Yeah. 

Well, I think I deserved someone better. 

And actually I ain't that seriously love him.

Cause after he told me those explanation, I was like. 

Hmmmm.

Okayyyy. I just cried for a while. 

I promise myself I will not cried for him anymore.

Goodbye my ex.

I think there must be somebody who are waiting for me in a corner. 

Just that I haven't realize 'the one'. 

Is okayyy:) 

I will be awaiting for my mr right to appear. 

Anyway, thanks mr loo again.

Haha.

Sorry for bothering you last night. 

:)

And I feel great for you.

Congrats on you eh. 

I think you can success.

Don't worry cause you are seriously a good person to be loved by the lucky girl.

Haha.

Seems so dramatic and bombastic.

Thanks pillow for absorbing all my tears.

Pity pillow.

Haha.

Well, thanks for the times for whoever that spend on me:) 

I know and I appreciate everyone. 

Trust me.

I will be a better and strong girl.

:) 

This time I seriously 想通了. 

I will be as cheerful as always. 

Michelle Foong has at least some painful memories in Uni life.

But Michelle Foong do have lots of happy memories to be remember in Uni life.

Cheers. Mwahhh.

*A kiss to myself*

❤❤❤❤❤

错过了才懂得珍惜.

Blogging about when you missed out a things then you only know how to appreciate.

Firstly is about my grandma:(

Grandma is my vvvvvvip in my life.

She is the one who raised me up besides my parents. 

Whenever I am at home now,

I realized my home is sort of empty. 

Without my grandma sound where she used to mumble me to do housework.

Today, when I help my mum to do some housework I only realized my grandma actually did a lot of housework last time.

She trim the flowers and grass, watering the plants, sweep the floor, drying our clothes, hanging our clothes and lots of stuff my grandma had done for us last time. 

But I didn't realized that until she went to a place that very far from us.

I only realized actually those houseworks supposingly is we, youngster to do. 

Not my grandma!

I hate myself for being a lazy bump last time.

But luckily I do help out my grandma last time.

If not I will hate myself more.

And today I saw a cockroach in the toilet. 

Last time, I will run to my grandma and ask her to help me.

But today, I have to settle the cockroach myself. 

Luckily, dad was here today.

So he help me out to throw the cockroach away.

Don't worry, grandma. 

I will not be a lazy bump anymore.

I will be brave:)

I miss your voice by calling my name, 'ah yen' in Cantonese. 

Imy.

Secondly, imy too.

I try to text you but I scare I annoyed you.

I try to be friends with you but I scare to accept the rejection.

I hope to ask for an outing with you but I scare I can't talk to you personally.

I got lots of stuff to tell to you.

I seriously hope you will understand me.

I never give up yet even though my brain ask me to give up. 

Do you know I hate myself being like this. 

Sigh.

Now, I only know you are important to me.

Thirdly, bestfriends.

Last time I have plenty of friends around me. 

Now I also have alot of friends but my bestfriends.

Last time I used to be with friends around me that make me feel secured cause I am not alone.

Now, no. 

I don't know why.

Am I that not important till you all didn't put me in your friend list.

I don't mind if you didn't ask me for dinner or addme into chat group. 

But at least don't ignore me.

I feel like being betrayed.

Hmmm.

I think betrayed is too harsh.

I feel like being ignored. *sounds better* 

Well, someone told me. 

Bestfriends/truefriends are hard to find.

Once you found them, then you must appreciate.

Yes, it is true.

I appreciated them but I don't know what  are their perception. 

But I am still lucky to have shiwei here. 

She is one of my best and crazy girlfriends in my Uni life:) 

Fourth, last time I used to have a best and crazy guy bestfriend.

He used to protect me.

He used to talk to me.

He used to tell me his stuff.

I used to tell him my stuff also.

Last time, people thought we were in relationship.

But honestly, we are not.

We are just somehow a damn close friends.

Don't know since when.

We are like strangers. 

*reasons, is because of me*

Maybe my immature thinking/action/perception make us become like a strangers. 

Finally, I text him and tell him that I'm sorry for being so childish last time.

I hope we can still become close friends again if you don't mind.

But I know he got lots of friends now.

So I am no longer the close friend on his list. 

However, I sincerely apologize again.

I seriously hope we can still talk to each other:) 

Sigh.

I should enjoy my raya breaks happily. 

But instead of that I am blogging here.

Cause I have no idea to tell who.

Is okay!

I tell myself don't emo and think too much. 

Cheers Michelle Foong.

Selca myself to make myself happier. ❤❤❤ 

P/s: I'm still wondering is there someone who still appreciating me as a friends or closemates? Haha. Lucky me if i still got:)

jealousy kills.

heyyo~

my post for today is jealousy kills.

i think i did post about jealousy previously

well, i got to update some about jealousy.

what does mean by jealousy.

seriously wth i am thinking.

i also dont know. 

jealousy.

what do you think about jealousy.

usually, i will get jealous easily.

is so damn easily.

i dont know why.

haha. 

is my personality since i am a kid.

but when i grow older, my jealousy level is reducing.

but today.

hellno.

my jealousy level went up today.

i used o get jealous in all sort of matter.

friends jealousy.

relationship jealousy.

family jealousy.

goods jealousy.

pretty jealousy.

all sort of stuff.

LOL.

i saw something that make me feel uncomfortable today.

what did i saw. nah, it's a secret here.

why do i get jealous over it instead there are actually not a big deal?

why why why.

please tell me why.

dumbasshole. 

:X

A step that change everything

Have you ever wonder once you move a step then everything will be different. 

Have anyone of you think about this before.

I just realize it is actually important to move a step forward first. 

It might change the entire story or life. 

Seems so dramatic. 

But I think it is quite true.

I have been wondering. 

How if I didn't move the step.

How if I move the step.

What will be happen. 

Nobody will know. 

Recently, I feel like I am a dumbfoolish girl! 

What is actually happening to me. 

My brain, please focus on  your study! 

My heart, please close the wound faster!

My eyes, please see the next person properly.

My ears, please listen carefully and attentively. 

My hands, please hold the right next person tightly. 

My legs, please walk with the right next person slowly.

Finally, my heart, please feel and treat the right next person sweetly.

Haha.

I hope I can do the above that I mentioned:) 

Loves. 

Noobie me. Haha.

Fatty me. :p

Crazy me. XD

My bestbuddy, shiwei:)

I don't know where I get the courage from.

I seriously don't know what happen to me yesterday. 

I think I seriously went crazy already.

But thanks to my sweetheart, shiwei for always being with me.

Without her, I think I couldn't make my first step.

Thanks 38po for always being with me. You know how grateful am I to have you as me bestbudy. Even though we seldom meet yet we are still close. And we got lots of topics to chat. Non stop chatting and laughing yesterday. Haha! I think I make you crazy yesterday too! XD

Seriously, I love your soup and bracelet:) 

Thanks for being so understanding to me. ❤❤❤❤❤ I think you are the only who can read my mind even though I hide my feeling! 

Haha.

You seriously my bestbuddy. Mwahhh. 

Your delicious abc soup. Slurppp. ❤

❤❤❤❤❤ p/s: don't mad on me for this photo ya. XD 

When wanna hangout again ya, 38po? 

It seems like we have been a time didn't I out together le:(

Miss the time we spend together and shop together at kl:) 

my grandma :)

i think i never blog about my grandma before.

my grandma or i usually call her as mama.

she is a brave and sweet lady.

she never say no whenever you need her help.

i still remember when i am a kid, she used to hold my hand and carried my school bag for me.

she used to walk out with me to wait for my school bus.

she offered her help to carry my heavy school bag even though she was tired.

she never say NO whenever she can help.

but when time pass.

wrinkles start to appear on her face.

her back start to hunch.

her appetite is not as good as before.

last time, when i hold her hand i can felt the fleshy and warm hand.

but i dont know since when her hand is becoming skinnier and skinnier.

when i hold her hand recently, i can felt her bone :(

she was so brave and strong when she is admitted in the hospital.

she even recognize me.

she used to tell me to drive slowly and not to back often to visit her.

she told me she scare i will skip my class.

when she is in ICU, she is so weak until she barely speak.

yet she still tell me she is fine.

tears rolling when i saw her lying on the bed with weak body.

then she is transferred to HDU. 

i am so lucky to have my day with my grandma at hospital.

i promised my grandma to overnight at there and accompany her.

i was late for 15mins and i'm so sorry to make my grandma worried.

she thought i am lost or being kidnapped. :')

nurse told me that my grandma has been calling my name for several times :(

sorry for making you so worried :/

then she is transferred to normal ward.

i thought you are in recovering process.

but NO, you mentioned that you wanted to go home.

and you said that even if you wanted to leave us you will leaved us at home :(

then you are finally home.
but you are weaken than before.
oxygen supplier is a need for you cause you barely breath.
when i step into your room, tears start to roll down.
but i hold my tears and call you several times.
slowly you open your eyes and smile with a weak smile.
i say you will be fine and dont worry.
you just smile:')
the next day, i still manage to make a cup of milk for you.
you say you wanted to take the medicine.
i thought you will be okay.
but time pass.
you left us at 3.45pm :'(
now, is almost 2 weeks you left us.
but memories of you are still fresh in my mind.
#imissyou#grandma
i hope you are enjoying yourself at another world and remember to take good care of yourself.
i will take good care of myself here.
so, dont worry about me:)
#iloveyou#memories#

:(

you will forever important in my heart, my lovely grandma:')

iloveyou <3