my grandma :)

i think i never blog about my grandma before.

my grandma or i usually call her as mama.

she is a brave and sweet lady.

she never say no whenever you need her help.

i still remember when i am a kid, she used to hold my hand and carried my school bag for me.

she used to walk out with me to wait for my school bus.

she offered her help to carry my heavy school bag even though she was tired.

she never say NO whenever she can help.

but when time pass.

wrinkles start to appear on her face.

her back start to hunch.

her appetite is not as good as before.

last time, when i hold her hand i can felt the fleshy and warm hand.

but i dont know since when her hand is becoming skinnier and skinnier.

when i hold her hand recently, i can felt her bone :(

she was so brave and strong when she is admitted in the hospital.

she even recognize me.

she used to tell me to drive slowly and not to back often to visit her.

she told me she scare i will skip my class.

when she is in ICU, she is so weak until she barely speak.

yet she still tell me she is fine.

tears rolling when i saw her lying on the bed with weak body.

then she is transferred to HDU. 

i am so lucky to have my day with my grandma at hospital.

i promised my grandma to overnight at there and accompany her.

i was late for 15mins and i'm so sorry to make my grandma worried.

she thought i am lost or being kidnapped. :')

nurse told me that my grandma has been calling my name for several times :(

sorry for making you so worried :/

then she is transferred to normal ward.

i thought you are in recovering process.

but NO, you mentioned that you wanted to go home.

and you said that even if you wanted to leave us you will leaved us at home :(

then you are finally home.
but you are weaken than before.
oxygen supplier is a need for you cause you barely breath.
when i step into your room, tears start to roll down.
but i hold my tears and call you several times.
slowly you open your eyes and smile with a weak smile.
i say you will be fine and dont worry.
you just smile:')
the next day, i still manage to make a cup of milk for you.
you say you wanted to take the medicine.
i thought you will be okay.
but time pass.
you left us at 3.45pm :'(
now, is almost 2 weeks you left us.
but memories of you are still fresh in my mind.
#imissyou#grandma
i hope you are enjoying yourself at another world and remember to take good care of yourself.
i will take good care of myself here.
so, dont worry about me:)
#iloveyou#memories#

:(

you will forever important in my heart, my lovely grandma:')

iloveyou <3