Stop that

I think I easily get jealous.

And I guess mostly my friends know it.

I get jealous when I saw you crazy for another girl.

Lol.

Wtf.

I think maybe I regret for not choosing you last time. 

That's why I get jealous over you. 

I don't know why.

Alright. I will stop myself from being like this.

Stop thinking and behaving like that.

I won't text you.

Till you find me.

Cause I can no longer stand for not receiving reply from others!

Shit!

Last time is I don't reply people but now people choose not to reply me.

Wtf.

You thought you very important?!

Till you can choose to not reply me.

Even though I text you!

Wtf.

I will control myself.

Bye.

Maybe I just need someone who can take care me and syg me when I need him.

So I only thought of this. 

But I knew you like other girl now.

So go get for it!

I will forget everything now and focus on my study!

Final exam is 11 more days to go!

I will study and get good result instead of thinking this things!

What does friends mean to you.

What does friends mean to you. 

I think I have been asking this question for several times.

And I ain't sure I got blog about this anot.  

Cause sometimes I blog till half way then I save it as draft.

So even myself also don't know got blog about this topic before anot.

Well, nvmm.

Let me blog again and sorry if I repeating the same topic.

Friends. 

What does friends mean to you.

For me.

Friends have a lot of definition.

It depends on how you treat and defined your friends.

Still the same.

Nothing much different even I mention it.

Well, did you guys treat me as a friends of you all.

If you do well... 

I have been pretending to be happy and laughing around.

But deep inside my heart I feel like asking the question to you guys.

I just don't feel like having the narrower with you all.

Wtf. 

Last time I don't care so much.

But now. I do.

Cause I treat you all like my true friend.

Wtf you all thinking.

I also don't know.

I bring you all together and at last I am out from group.

You guys never try to even bother asking it.

Well, is okayy. 

I always tell myself I still got alot of friends that are sincerely treat me like a friend.

I doesn't mean you guys didn't treat me like a friends but you guys are too much. 

Not to say too much.

Just too obvious okay.

Well, eventhough I say I don't mind but actually I do.

Wtf my brain is thinking.

I don't know.

Maybe I care too much. 

I gonna private my blog for this post cause I don't wanna people to feel sympathy to me. 

I just wanna post it out.

Sorry if I have been bothering you guys.

Thanks! 

a new experience for me:)

17.08.2013
it was a new experience for me.
everything just come too fast.
haha.
i went to new village survey with my sis, jenifer and kar weng.
it was just happen out of sudden.
as we decide to join this event on friday:)
but, i never regret for joining this event even though i have to wake up at 4am :O
yet, it was an enjoyable trip.
4 of us are send to Kampung Bagan Baru to do our survey.
at first i was worried as it was the first time we went to village and do the survey with zero knowledge.
we are so lucky that the villagers at there are very friendly and nice.
love talking with them <3
we are served with foods and drinks wherever we go:)
it was so lovely :)
the first destination that we meet the villagers and the ajk as well as the ketua kampung is at the dewan kg. bagan baru.
at there, we have our breakfast and short interview section with the ketua kampung as well as the ajk.
their village is 100% malay residents.
wow.
not even a chinese nor indian residents at there.
but they still treat us like their children especially Pak Su who in charge to bring us around the kampung.
Pak Su is very nice and friendly.
he even joke with us.
such a lovely person.
Pak Su is the person in charge for Homestay activities.
he told us a lot of stories about Homestay and the cost for Homestay is only RM35 per person including 3 meals and transportation!
how cheap is the rate!
and the room for homestay is also damn nice.
i promise them that i will pay a visit again perhaps after my final cause we didnt have to time to visit all the places in the kampung.
Pak Su said some of the places like Waterfall, sungai atas sungai and a lot of attractive and interesting places, we have to stay overnight only can visit there.
thus, i will pay a visit again cause it was seriously a new experience for me.
we only get to visit mini muzuem, herbs farm, Pak Su house and Kolam ikan keli that day due to limited time.
anyone of you who are interested to go village with me?
haha.
no doubt that it was fun!
cause people at there are seriously nice and lovely.
<3

handicraft from the villagers which only cost rm2.50 :)

lovely keychain which only cost rm 350 :)

with the exco members of Kg Bagan Baru

one of the herbs that cure and prevent a lot of illness:)

with the lovely villagers :)

Dewan Homestay :)

as if they know i snap their photo xD

i thought i was at kedai makan but they correct me and told me it was a gerai makanan not kedai ;)

them ^^

asam drink from lovely them :)

4 of us at homestay room :)

me at nice room:) keke. 

Pak Su and Mak Su
*sweetest foster family*

with them <3

us after survey :)

activities never stop till the night after i reach kampar.
and it was really spontaneous that i say "yes" to go hot spring, lostworld of tambun
lol.
it was really spontaneous.
i dont even know i will become that spontaneous also.
:)

photo of the day.
ignore my fat face :(

tadaaa:) 

it was fun and tiring day.
but it was enjoyable and memorable with lots of laughter and jokes.
<3

A new day for me(:

Today is the new day for me.

Lots of people are waiting for meteor.

Some of my friends ask me why didn't I go wait and see the meteor.

Aduiii.

Satu orang how to see meteor.

Takkan all one pair one pair then I forever alone sit there and see?

LOL.

Is okayyy:)

If meteor do appears,

I wish.......*wishing*.......

Goodbye my past!

Welcome my bright future:)

Sometimes I just wish there is somebody at there telling me is okay, don't worry. I will be your side no matter what happen.

I just wish there is someone who text me, you don't need to pretend to be tough. You can cry as much as you can. There is always my shoulder for you.

I just wish someone who can protect me from being hurt.

I just wish someone who can cheers me.

I just wish someone who can accompany me.

Am I too over? 

It seems a bit. 

Nvmm.

I think one people still can survive. 

I can remind myself being happy.

I can protect myself.

I can cheers myself.

I can........myself. 

But sometimes when I'm tired of all these things, I just need someone to talk to and listen to my craps.

It is more than enough. 

(: 

Okayyy! Done of emoness. 

Got to go back to my study life. 

(:  

This photo is just reflecting myself. 

*nopeee* got to stop all this things.

I can do it la(:

我真的想通了.

First and foremost, 

Thanks mr loo for spending your time to listen to my craps yesterday. 

I'm seriously okay now:)

Last night is the last time j will cried for him.

Yeah. 

Well, I think I deserved someone better. 

And actually I ain't that seriously love him.

Cause after he told me those explanation, I was like. 

Hmmmm.

Okayyyy. I just cried for a while. 

I promise myself I will not cried for him anymore.

Goodbye my ex.

I think there must be somebody who are waiting for me in a corner. 

Just that I haven't realize 'the one'. 

Is okayyy:) 

I will be awaiting for my mr right to appear. 

Anyway, thanks mr loo again.

Haha.

Sorry for bothering you last night. 

:)

And I feel great for you.

Congrats on you eh. 

I think you can success.

Don't worry cause you are seriously a good person to be loved by the lucky girl.

Haha.

Seems so dramatic and bombastic.

Thanks pillow for absorbing all my tears.

Pity pillow.

Haha.

Well, thanks for the times for whoever that spend on me:) 

I know and I appreciate everyone. 

Trust me.

I will be a better and strong girl.

:) 

This time I seriously 想通了. 

I will be as cheerful as always. 

Michelle Foong has at least some painful memories in Uni life.

But Michelle Foong do have lots of happy memories to be remember in Uni life.

Cheers. Mwahhh.

*A kiss to myself*

❤❤❤❤❤

错过了才懂得珍惜.

Blogging about when you missed out a things then you only know how to appreciate.

Firstly is about my grandma:(

Grandma is my vvvvvvip in my life.

She is the one who raised me up besides my parents. 

Whenever I am at home now,

I realized my home is sort of empty. 

Without my grandma sound where she used to mumble me to do housework.

Today, when I help my mum to do some housework I only realized my grandma actually did a lot of housework last time.

She trim the flowers and grass, watering the plants, sweep the floor, drying our clothes, hanging our clothes and lots of stuff my grandma had done for us last time. 

But I didn't realized that until she went to a place that very far from us.

I only realized actually those houseworks supposingly is we, youngster to do. 

Not my grandma!

I hate myself for being a lazy bump last time.

But luckily I do help out my grandma last time.

If not I will hate myself more.

And today I saw a cockroach in the toilet. 

Last time, I will run to my grandma and ask her to help me.

But today, I have to settle the cockroach myself. 

Luckily, dad was here today.

So he help me out to throw the cockroach away.

Don't worry, grandma. 

I will not be a lazy bump anymore.

I will be brave:)

I miss your voice by calling my name, 'ah yen' in Cantonese. 

Imy.

Secondly, imy too.

I try to text you but I scare I annoyed you.

I try to be friends with you but I scare to accept the rejection.

I hope to ask for an outing with you but I scare I can't talk to you personally.

I got lots of stuff to tell to you.

I seriously hope you will understand me.

I never give up yet even though my brain ask me to give up. 

Do you know I hate myself being like this. 

Sigh.

Now, I only know you are important to me.

Thirdly, bestfriends.

Last time I have plenty of friends around me. 

Now I also have alot of friends but my bestfriends.

Last time I used to be with friends around me that make me feel secured cause I am not alone.

Now, no. 

I don't know why.

Am I that not important till you all didn't put me in your friend list.

I don't mind if you didn't ask me for dinner or addme into chat group. 

But at least don't ignore me.

I feel like being betrayed.

Hmmm.

I think betrayed is too harsh.

I feel like being ignored. *sounds better* 

Well, someone told me. 

Bestfriends/truefriends are hard to find.

Once you found them, then you must appreciate.

Yes, it is true.

I appreciated them but I don't know what  are their perception. 

But I am still lucky to have shiwei here. 

She is one of my best and crazy girlfriends in my Uni life:) 

Fourth, last time I used to have a best and crazy guy bestfriend.

He used to protect me.

He used to talk to me.

He used to tell me his stuff.

I used to tell him my stuff also.

Last time, people thought we were in relationship.

But honestly, we are not.

We are just somehow a damn close friends.

Don't know since when.

We are like strangers. 

*reasons, is because of me*

Maybe my immature thinking/action/perception make us become like a strangers. 

Finally, I text him and tell him that I'm sorry for being so childish last time.

I hope we can still become close friends again if you don't mind.

But I know he got lots of friends now.

So I am no longer the close friend on his list. 

However, I sincerely apologize again.

I seriously hope we can still talk to each other:) 

Sigh.

I should enjoy my raya breaks happily. 

But instead of that I am blogging here.

Cause I have no idea to tell who.

Is okay!

I tell myself don't emo and think too much. 

Cheers Michelle Foong.

Selca myself to make myself happier. ❤❤❤ 

P/s: I'm still wondering is there someone who still appreciating me as a friends or closemates? Haha. Lucky me if i still got:)