a short break

  

heyyy there.
i have public back my blog.
some of you might think that am i too free and nothing to do.
why do i private and public back.
lol
hello there.
why do you care so much.
NOYB also.
hahahah.
i am having few days break before going for my intern.
just a few days nia.
cause my last paper end at 21st of sept. :X
and this is the first time i was worried for my result.
pray for flying colours if possible.
but give me pass all then okay already :/
i view back few years ago photo just now.
i was like.
@@
ohmygosh.
iamsofatnow!
T.T
and last time i dont care so much about r'ship.
what i only care is about friendship.
and last time my thinking is very "naive"?
LOL.
i treat friends around me very good.
but now, maybe my thinking is no longer the same.
i am thinking that what if i treat you good and you treat me bad.
what if i treat you as my besties but you treat as a grass nor chewing gum.
what if.....
i dont know.
well, i not going to think so much now.
gonna live happily like what i use to do during foundation time.
i aint going to make myself so suffer.
gonna live happily from now onwards:)
i promise myself:)
yeah.
2moro i am going to KL for 3d2n.
gonna shop with my 38po and take alot of nice photos.
then am going to work next monday.
hopefully everything went smoothly.
bopi:)

nov, 2011 :)

                                                       

june,2012 :)

spet, 2013 :)

am i fat alot?:(
gonna keep fit!
am i getting prettier?
muahahah.
syok sendiri.,
got to pack my bag first.
goodnight.
loves:)

Mid autumn festival

Happy mooncake festival.

Sigh.

It is my first time celebrating with my notes.

Most of my friends already finish their exam and went back to their hometown happily.

Sigh.

Still remember last year today.

I just straighten my hair and I was happily playing lantern with my cousins and grandma. 

But this year everything change:(

My brain is thinking of someone. 

Where I don't used to appreciate last time.

I was thinking if we are still together then we must be happily enjoying our life now?

Should it be like this?

Actually I already forget him.

Maybe I'm influence by the surrounding.

Like my housemate which is my cousin has a Boyf now:)

And they are happily together.

Perhaps, I am just jealous over it. T.T

That's why I only think of you.

Blaming myself for not appreciating you so much last time.

I wish time could twist back. 

I just someone be there for me supporting me and giving a warm hug for me when I am tired.

Am I desperate too much for a Boyf?

LOL.

I hope next year today I will be celebrating my mooncake festival with my mr right and my family:)

Hopefully.

Haha.

So I won't think of you anymore.

I am just tired of studying and suddenly you appear.

So it is coincidence.

I hope I can meet my mr right soon.

Teehee.

I just need someone who can treat me good, and accept my personality.

Are you the one?:)

Sigh.

Stop dreaming.

Back to reality.

Got to study already. 

Bye..... T.T

Fatty face with pimples. :((( 

360 camera make me so pretty! :P

Loves

A good deed

I have done a good deed today. 

Not consider a really good deed also.

Today I went to pay streamyx bill with my sis. 

Then my sis ask me to go inside the car and wait cause scare got saman.

When I am walking to the car,

Suddenly an old lady with a Down syndrome girl walking towards me.

The old lady call me for help.

I was shocked and scare it is those bluff people case.

But I stop and listen to the old lady.

She just wanna me fetch her a ride to see doctor.

I was like ohmygosh. An old lady around 80plus with a Down syndrome girl.

I felt sympathy so I said okay and give a ride to fetch them to see doctor.

When we are at clinic, my sis wait us inside the car. 

So I accompany the grandma and the girl go down.

Supposingly, the turn for grandma to see doctor is no 5 but we have to wait till all the other patients have consult the doctor then only the grandma can go in and consult.

I was like wtf, because of people didnt pay for the consultation fees doesn't mean to be treated unequally. 

Then I was like ask the grandma why doesn't reach their turn yet.

Then she answer me politely and say because just now when we come already got so many people. 

So we must wait.

But actually deep inside my heart I know they are treated not equally.

Then the grandma can't say anything.

So we just wait patiently till reach our turn.

Then the nurse at there were rude!

I saw it myself.

The grandma ask for extra bottle to put the medicine but they refuse to give and shout at the grandma.

I was like wtf. I feel like standing up and going to talk with the nurse.

And ask them how much the bootle worth. I paid for them.

But I didn't bring my purse down.

So I can't do anything. 

I just sat there quietly.

Sigh.

Then I only realize reality is cruel.

People will look down on you if you are poor or disable. 

Then the grandma keep on thanks me for fetching them cause they barely walk and keep thanks for accompany them.

I say is okay and I ain't rush also.

They offer to eat together but my sis refuse cause we have to go and fix out clothes.

If can I wish to eat with them and pay them some money.

But I didn't work and I don't have much money:(

So I can't help them.

I feel sorry for that.

Sigh.

Luckily I get the aunty number and she get mine too.

Perhaps in the future we will have the fate to meet again(:

So at last I just drop her at the eating stall. She say she can walk back home cause it is not far away.

I feel heartache. 

But may God bless you grandma and the girl. 

She keep on blessing me saying 好人有好报. 

I feel bless for that(: 

Too bad I can't have the time to snap photo with her cause I scare it is rude to ask a photo when we just met. :(

Goodluck grandma(: 

So selca myself for today:')

My grandma, 100days.

Today is my grandma pass away for 100days.

Time flies with a blink of eyes.

Without realizing, my grandma already away from me for 100days.

I still remember that day I was still in hospital sitting beside you seeing you so energetic and tell me that you are going to recover very soon.

I was so glad to hear that and I'm grateful that i spend my night with you at hospital that day. 

Today, is your 100th day.

I admit I miss you so much:(

I cried few times at night when I think of you.

I even dream of you that you are just beside me.

I just don't know why insects love sticking me so much.

Last time when I went dinner with family, an insect stick on my clothes.

And my dad told me that it is you(:

Today, when we go to the graveyard there a caterpillar stick on my clothes! @@ 

Once again, my relatives say it was you.

Haha.

Ridiculous right?:)

Hees.

Maybe grandma miss me too.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy your life at another world.

Don't make yourself so tired okay?

Imissyou(: 

Memories between you and me will forever in my heart. 

Lovely watch from your cupboard. Even though it doesn't belong to me but I still manage to snap photo with it(: 

This is you when I was beside you accompanying you at hospital. I was heartache to see that you are so skinny:( 

This is pretty you when you are young!(: 

With lots of blessing from us, I know you are happy enjoying your life with ah gong at another world:') 

Finally, this is me for today look. Sleepylook:O 

Iloveyou, grandma. 

Loves. 

Stressful

Sobs

I think is my first time to feel this like this stress! 

Sigh

It seems like whatever I had study I couldn't remember.

Is my first time to copy formula in both calculator!

I think I put too much pressure on myself.

Tell myself to calm down.

Calm down.

And the worst case is I have to suffered from heavy headache now.

Luckily mum bought us the cool fever before this.

Calm down, Michelle Foong. 

You can do it. 

Okay? 

Cheers.

Don't refer too much on what you copy! 

Cause it is not good to do that. 

I feel worried:(

Aiks.

Alright.

Got to go to bed.

And study again tomorrow morning.

Goodnight. loves.

See my sick look! Haha. *xproeditor*