saw wilber panin real person:)

today i saw wilber pan in real person!!:) he is so damn handsome and lovely fair skin!! how jealous am i with the lovely and fair skin he have. why couldnt i have such a smooth and lovely skin like him?:( but he is so handsome and sweet. he is so sweet with his smile:) he sang few songs and he is so good in singing. cool wilber pan<3 it is worth to see him even though heritage hall was crowded with many students and even though i packed like sardin. it is really WORTH:) thanks sally too cause is she give me the ticket and album. if sally didnt give me then i wont have the chance too see wilber pan. when the turn my turn to go up stage to get the signature from wilber pan i was so gan jeong. heartbeat++ cause i not lenglui and got pimples:( i scare myself so ugly cause girls that are going up to stage also very pretty. so i just look down on the floor and go in front. but of course i dont wanna wasted the chance to see wilber pan so near. so i just look at him when he sign and when he look up and shake had with me he smile to me and i smile back to him too!:) so lovely him. but smile to everyone too:) but it is enough for me. so lovely him and i start to love him and love his song:) <3 love u wilber pan!:) enjoy myself throughout the mini concert with shiwei:) and peiwen too~:) HAPPY!!!~

continue the journey:)

07.08.2011
we start our journey to cameron on 11am plus. we went alot of places at cameron. oppps. by the time we reach cameron is around 1pm plus. went to eat. went to different park and farm. wow. was a wonderful trip to cameron. avout 11 of us going there. me.shiwei.peiwen.isabell.waimun.namleong.frankie.hongsheng.weiyet.kc.Z. 
5 girls and 6 guys:D
even though i dont wanna see Z at there but i still manage to control myself. i smile and snap photo and crazy around with them. luckily shi wei is there with me. she is the one who understand me the most. although sometimes we do argue yet we are still that close.xD actually we go cameron is to help frankie to celebrate his 21st birthday. haha. was too crazy and enjoy that day. the trip was a wonderful trip. luckily i didnt miss out. snap alot of pictures. haha. i upload few at here:) bought alot of stuff=spends alot of money there=/ i spend alomst 170bucks there. wow. really a shopaholic. see what buy what. haha. bought cherry tomatoes, roses, strawberry, tee, chocolate and cactus. 
the roses is very cheap over there. only rm2.50 a bouquet if we bought 4bouquet. so me.shiwei.peiwen.isabell. share over the roses. the roses was very nice at cameron but when back to kampar the roses wanna die already:( 
anyway, i enjoy  myself over this trip:) love u all so much<3 thanks for bring those happiness and memories to me.

journey start::D

06.08.2011

In the afternoon we were having test for qt. after that we wait for frankie to fetch us to eastlake to gather and start our journey to cameron. about 6.30pm we start our journey. stupid car rental spoil on the way we going to cameron. fix and fix and fix also no use. after done fixing is already around 11pm plus. was worried to go cameron on late night. i think God dont want us go cameron on midnight cause the car spoil again. i think is the fate. so we decide to go cameron on the next morning. luckily we didnt go cameron on the midnight cause the car spoil on the way back to kampar.== stupid car.

limited time for me=/

is friday today. thought of attending morning micro tutorial class and account replacement class but then i overslept. thought attending yoga class on morning but then i didnt wake up!:( why am i that LAZY?! hate myself for being so lazy. skip class. skip class. skip class!:( terrible attitude. should change myself before i regret! heard something that shoulnt be heard? aiks. nvmmm. if i couldnt go is okay for me cause i hate someone (Z) there. make me remember how stupid am i being fooled by him. thats why i cant accept ppl call me dear especially a guy call me like this. dear means what? i cant accept when a friend call like this. is because my ex start calling me dear when she got GF!! means i am the third person!! shit. how stupid am i where i still didnt realise that. until we break up  i only realise. HOW STUPID am I. i dont hope this situation repeated again. i cant manage to handle the feeling being fooled and hurt! i try to smile everyday in order to make myself more happy. i try to look forward by forgetting the past. i try and i really try. but i dunno why nowadays i cry easily like my form1 life. maybe i cant manage well my feeling? hmmm. should learn how to manage well my feeling. but i still believe 只要笑一笑没什么事情过不了. it is truth:) so i keep remindind myself to smile every single day to prove that u are happy. cheers MICHELLE FOONG! everything will be alright. trust urself. u still got another group of friends. so it is okay:)

grandpa pass away for 100days:(

wake up in the morning to prepare for praying ceremony for my late grandpa:( wanted to cry out so much when the sifu start the ceremony. the picture of grandpa will be keep inside the cupboard. :( aiksss. shouldnt have waste so many times on mon and tues for watching drama non stop=/ now i have to rush my time to finish up my revision for QT:'( may grandpa bless me with a peaceful memory and manage to prepare well for the QT mid term. i believe that grandpa wouldnt want us to sad for so long cause he had a better life in another world. but i wanna cry because i would never meet my grandpa again. so appreciate the ppl in front of u now is truth! arghhh. got to go for revision for QT even though i am lazy:( go go go go. i believe u can. fighting<3

new month!:)

now is the month of August already. time flies. with a blink of eyes my grandpa pass away almost 3months means 100days. 2moro will be my grandpa pass away for 100days and going to " sit on the praying table". hmmm. seriously i miss my grandpa even though he pass away for few months already. when my grandpa still alive i didnt have much memory with him cause he had Alzheimer diseases. he coulnt recognize us. my memory with grandpa is just during my KIDS LIFE. i still remember how grandpa tell jokes for me and how grandpa mumble me for my own good and how grandpa scold us for playing candle with fire during mooncake festival. those memories will always carve inside my heart. i dream of my grandpa for 2nd time yesterday. the first time is months ago if i am not mistaken. inside my dream my grandpa say he gonna leave us then everyone in the family members were crying including me. i hug my grandpa and cry but i forget what i say. then i was awoke. and my mood suddenly so down. luckily i went to watch the taiwan drama to cheer me up! i know that we must appreciate the people in front of u now. who treat u good and who care for u. but i havent meet that someone yet. maybe not the time yet. hopefully grandpa will bless me with a good looking and caring with good family background future bf and husband.XD haha. i just wanna say that may my grandpa having a good life in another world:) imy grandpa.<3